A memory of the hidden self

It’s really great to know that while moving through time and space, we have the ability to keep our memories of what it has once been. We definitely don’t remember everything as it is more important to live in the here and now instead of dwelling on the past events of our life. There certainly are as well, some past events, which are much better to be forgotten and not carrying their burden forward. Whatever memories we have brought to the present, they come to show us where we have been and how much we have changed.

Our memories have the incredible abilities to pop up out of the blue whenever and wherever we least expect them. They can be provoked by meeting accidentally an old acquaintance in the street, visiting a cherished place we haven’t been for years, encountering a picture and even a good old song. That’s the moment when we “secretly” turn back to the past to recollect how it has all been. These moments will usually make us smile or shed a tear, but most importantly, they will help us realise how different it is all now.

There’s yet another type of memories which also have the knack to unexpectedly overwhelm us, looking as if they have come out of the nowhere. Their appearance resembles haunting of ghosts and no matter how hard we may try to lock them into the deepest drawer of our minds and force ourselves to forget, they keep on coming over and over again. Those memories are usually connected with some pretty painful events, and living with the idea that time can heal everything looks like the least suitable solution to overcome the issue.

Taking that aching piece of our souls and trying to bury it in the past, hoping that we will never hear its voice again is just an illusion. We can’t hide it from the world and even from ourselves, as our soul has been meant to be complete. It will follow us through time and space as an unfinished business in search of a certain solution. The memory of that hidden self will be constantly projected on different people and places till we find the strength within ourselves to go back there again and personally heal it. 

It may take some time to get ready meeting our hidden self and accepting it as a part of ourselves again. There’s no need to fear the meeting as the pain will be just a memory from the past. The time will have done its best service to make us grow and change, to be strong enough to handle it. Looking back to the past will be a mere observation of what it has already been, and no matter how we have felt there and then, it is all different now. Within that moment we may need to forgive or ask for forgiveness, to close that page and freely move on.